preparing to send my first ever contentious email to a faculty member and i feel shitty about it and am actually terrified of it but have never in three years been as livid about teaching quality as i am right now.
not to mention that literally 6/7 days this last week i have woken up hyperventilating each night because of a different nightmare about dying in terrible ways which is absolutely no fun at all and is probably exacerbated by the fact that i’m starting to become very afraid of sleep
wow my tumblr is just a depressing shithole lately
i’m just in such a weird place where everything sucks and i can’t tell if it’s always sucked this much and i’m just depressed this time or if it sucks more and is making me depressed for good reason but like holy shit i just want to go curl up and cry 85% of the time because life is so so so so so hard and terrifying
is it bad that i get annoyed when ppl i don’t like call paul bb
i like most ppl so this isn’t that much of a problem but man there are some ppl in this world
so many read mores but uh read more if you want to understand a lot of me
life is hard